My first Christmas without Pete was horrible. Even that word doesn't do the heartache justice. The second Christmas wasn't much better. But I came to understand that I couldn't go back to the original traditions. In order to save my sanity, I was going to have to find some new traditions. First off, I couldn't stand to look at those Christmas stockings. The ones that all matched, and I really couldn't stand looking at Pete's Christmas stocking knowing he would never need it again. I decided the kids needed new Christmas stockings. Ones that they picked out. So off to Hobby Lobby we went. I even decided to get a new one as well. But me, being the indecisive Crazy lady that I am,...
Hurrah is 2020! I have seen so many people posting their collages like glimpses of their life in a ten year time span. I or course had no desire to participate in this. Considering the last ten years have been an uphill climb, and a lot of this climb isn't in a photograph. Its been in experiences. My first thought was why would I want to share that. I don't like to be a follower. I like to be unique. I want to stand out from what the rest of the "herd" is doing. Although in my former years I just wanted to fit in. And now I just want to be heard. Not for just a survivor, but as...
I started this blog to express where my inspiration comes from and why I create the way I do. In this space there will be music, lyrics, squirrels, random musings, questions, and sparkles. I wouldn't be me without sparkles thrown in. For me, Music is healing, empowering, magical, and intense. Music is how I express myself when I can't find the words to do it. Its partly why I sing to all my products. Some songs touch my heart so intensely it makes me wish I could take the music notes and staff, plus the instruments, and vocals and wrap it around me like a blanket. I use all my senses to create. Whether I am talking to animals, aligning...
People who say that moving is easy are even crazier than me. Or maybe it's just easy for people who haven't spent 16 years of their life in one home. Maybe that was my mistake I should have moved sooner. Unfortunately, it just wasn't possible at the time. I was excited at first. A new home. A place that wasn't filled with grief and trauma. The house hunting was exhausting and at times I felt like I would never find the right place. Everyone kept saying, just find a place that feels right to you. My mind kept searching though because it wasn't just me it was my family too. I needed a space that felt good to them too. my...
